I looked into his little eyes under my furrowed eyebrows.
He met my gaze for a short second before lifting his arm and swinging his hand angrily at me.
My heart shattered a little.
I now understood this verse a lot better than before I became a parent.
"... do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption." Ephesians 4:30
My 16-month-old toddler swung his hand at me because he didn't get what he wanted.
It was an active rebellion for I had already asked him not to hit me, but he chose to disobey.
This act of disobedient grieved my heart, which brought the Ephesians 4:30 verse to my mind.
I grieved because my toddler knew what ought not to do, but still chose to go his own way.
This little sting in my heart must be how the Holy Spirit feels whenever I choose to sin against God.
Strong's Definitions defines 'grief' used in this verse as "to distress", "to be sad", "to cause grief" and "be in heaviness".
When we sin, we give the Holy Spirit a heavy heart.
How does that affect your perspective of sin and God?
It definitely speaks to my emotional side. God is not just angry at sins like we see a lot in the old testament, it also touches His heart when we rebel.
I see a loving Father's heart breaking over the poor choices His children make.
What a moving picture!
Having a fresh perspective on grieving the Holy Spirit, I now want to say, "I'll never sin again because I don't want to make God sad."
While that is my heart's desire, I know my weak flesh and sinful nature will still choose to rebel one way or another.
With that being said, I'm going to pray for the Spirit's guidance and pray that my feet will slip less and less.
Will you join me?
When we do fall, let's sing praises to Jesus as we get back up on our feet for we know His Saving Grace has caught us safe and sound.