Processing Grief [vol. 1]

I had a hard time figuring out what to write or how to eloquently write about grief.

But I guess it makes sense when I haven't even figured out what grief is exactly. 

My father passed away over a month ago. 

I had never grieved over a loved one's death before, which makes processing his death a very foreign idea to me.

If you are looking for an answer to grief, I am sorry I do not have it.  But I can share with you how I am processing through it.

From what I have gathered so far, grief is a process. And it could be a long one.  

Some days you might go about your day like normal, some days it might hit you. 

Some days tears may stream down your face but you have no words to explain why they are there. 

I don't think it was coincidental that I've had two dreams of Grant dying since my father's death. It felt so real I found myself sobbing after waking from the dreams. It was weird.

If you are also grieving, I am sad and heartbroken for your loss. 

if you know someone who is grieving, one thing you can say to them is "I love you". 

Odd, I know. But that is what brought comfort to me when the news of my father's death broke out. 

I can't tell you why that is. But it did make me feel better. 

It's funny. I never thought processing grief would be like this.

It's like steam or fog. I can see it, I know it's there, but I can't quite touch it.

Anyways, I'll write up another post about grief when I have processed it even more :)